Sometimes I find it very hard to live in the present. I feel alone even though I am not really alone. I escape this feeling by living in a fantasy for some moments. It’s not real. But it helps me. It usually takes me two or three days to overcome the lonely feeling. When I do that, I become okay. Then I can be productive. But during the low key period, I cannot engage in any other activities. I kind of call it my dormant period. When I am on a tight schedule, I always think of a lot of good stuff to do in my life. I get desperate to carry out all of them. But when I’m relieved of my workloads, that urge fades away somehow. I love to paint while listening to my favourite music on the earphones. I write my thoughts in my head when I couldn’t scribble it down. I talk to myself when I don’t have people to talk to (not in an insane way though). It’s not that I don’t have someone to talk to. But sometimes, I just feel like not talking to anybody. Everybody feels this way sometimes, isn’t it? If that’s the case, I’m not crazy then.
It’s always good to share your feelings with somebody. If you don’t feel like sharing it with others, it’s always better to write it down. Keep a diary or a journal or whatever you may call it.
“It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else.”
― Erma Bombeck